Mêlée

Its been long enough. A fortnight of network retardation could prove the same mentally as well. Well at least the papers are all over now. I'll save the colloquy for next time, this one here below is quite long. I initially wanted to italicise a few lines but I figured I'd let you do the figuring. It may seem a little alarming but I assure you I don't harbour thoughts about betraying my faith. I can't. That's the beauty of it. Heh. Enjoy.

Mêlée

Peace to you, my brethren!

Hallelujah for divine languor.

Dear child, pl-

Hallelujah for anticipation! Hallelujah for the anticlimax! How ‘bout the antichrist!? Heh, agreed. Hallelujah.

Your bridge, Your grace, Your strategy
Is this how we choose today?
Is this compassion, or love when we tear in vain
for the ones that fade away
Are our words cacophony
fallen on apathy
since You knew what we were going to say?
Have we no say?
Now the wounds of this gap scream of how
they’ll never close away.
The gap You promised to seal.
The scars You promised to heal.
But all is left, is the rain of the unremitting
and our wishing it could all dry up
Just like the sporadic decks of cards that You deal
everyday
spades, clovers and diamonds forlorn
Melodies, hymns and symphonies are noise
Every prayer, every voice
right before every slumber, every meal
Have they become a routine even to You?

Where were you when I was drenched in blood?
Then and now, spears and guns
scorning My tears and My choice, My fate
worse than that of the prodigal son
Yet I haven’t closed a single door
since your walk on the aisle begun
This is My profession, He played that suit of hearts on Me
There was no dice but sacrifice
This is My confession, I need you not but I still love thee.
Child, you won’t live long if touch dictates!
Nor sight, nor sound nor smell
for beauty lives where spirits compel
where ours shall weave and interlock...
I pray.

Light and dark
Light and
Light

It’s been there all along
Oh Agnus dei
break these chains
of alexithymia
of cursory
of vice and felony

Break me and make me again.

~tc©